My book club now has 20 members. Boy is this going to be fun finding a place where we can meet that will hold all of us. Guess it's just one more thing to try and keep myself busy.

I've started getting stuff for Matthew to go back to school. I'm almost finished with the cross-stitch. All I have left to do is the outlines on everything. Been going through Matthew's closet and taking out all of the stuff that doesn't fit him anymore. There sure is a lot of it. I can't belive how fast he's growing these days. I'm probably going to be buying him a new pair of shoes every month during the school year the way he's growing. He's almost as tall as I am.

Spoke with Johnathon today. I didn't make it to my session because of the stupid migraine. He had a lot of positive information for me and recommended that we proceed on a couple of things even though I didn't make it. I'm looking forward to the papers that he's sending me in the mail for me to work on. Cognitive behavioral therapy, Yoga, controlled exposure, etc. Time to push the boundaries a bit. I'm looking forward to some improvement. I need to look back and see things that I've overcome and right now there aren't very many that jump right out at me.

The trick is staying positive, trying my hardest, not getting down on myself when I don't succeed at something and controlling my physical responses to the panic attacks.