Triggers:

Getting stopped at a red light.

Physically getting too hot (exercise, being outside, etc.)

Knowing that I have to be somewhere at a specific time.

Trying to go somewhere I haven't been able to make it to recently.

Anything having to do with crossing the freeway.

Driving during the daytime (i.e. anytime before rush hour)

Going anywhere before noon.

Stressful day with people nagging at me.

Getting pissed off at myself for not being able to accomplish a trip.

Getting pissed off that I'm still having the attacks after 9 months.

Dealing with Mom in any way.

Arguing with Matthew.

Just thinking about my panic attakcs.

Reactions before going anywhere:

Start mentally planning my route to avoid stop lights and/or busy traffic.

Start thinking about having to make it somewhere.

Worry about not being able to make it.

Small amounts of panic ensue.

Physical/mental reactions during an attack:

My stomach tightens.

I start having trouble breathing.

Overwhelming feeling of dread.

Urgency to return home.

Fear of passing out while driving.

Fear of being stuck away from home during an attack without any way to get home.

Fear of the attack itself.

Fear of not being able to finish what I started.

Fear of being trapped at a light and having my symptoms worsen.

Why can't I do this?

As soon as I turn around and start heading towards home, my reaction lessens. It doesn't go away until I'm in my driveway but it lessens once I start heading back.