I've already spoken to Sharon and Mom this morning regarding all of the stuff that we're each bringing for the Mother's Day BBQ. So far, we've got homemade potato salad, pasta salad, deviled eggs, burgers, hot dogs, chips and soda. Plus all of the condiments, chairs, plates, silverware, canopies, chairs and grill. We have no idea what Peggy is bringing for her side of the clan but the five of us are covered.

I am really trying to stay positive about going out today to the park. The drive is only a couple of blocks from my house so it'll be close if I need to leave early. I've already warned Sharon that I'll definitely be arriving but I may not stay long. I plan on staying to the end I just didn't want her to be disappointed if I had a panic attack and needed to leave early. Nonetheless, I am feeling great and think I'll do just fine. It'll be nice to get out of the house for something other than grocery shopping or bank trips.

Matthew is in one of his moods. I really hope that he behaves today because I need this to be a positive goal without stress for me. It sounds silly but I really need this. I need the trip, I need the fresh air, I need the company and I need the fun.