Dick says that my therapy is coming along nicely. The fact that I'm actually driving somewhere every day is a BIG deal. The fact that I'm starting to go places by myself for once, HUGE deal. I'm still fighting the panic attacks but at least I'm pushing my boundaries enough to make my mind comfy with the fact that I'm outside of my original boundaries.

I think I'm getting better but not as fast as I would like. I'm going crazy not working. I really need to find something to do to get paid working from home. I'm an intelligent, analytical, hard-working woman. There has to be something out there for me.

In a nut-shell, the great news is that I'm expanding my boundaries, starting to take back control of my life, starting to venture out on my own and I'm actually staying very positive about it all. I love having my mornings to relax, eat, play some card games on the PC, make the phone calls that I need to and take my time getting my day started. I don't want to get too comfortable with having my mornings to myself because I know it won't last but when I start back to work I'll just make sure that everyone understands that this is how my Sunday mornings will go. I want Sunday's to myself after I get well enough to work outside of the house.

I miss work. I miss going to fellowship. I miss visiting with Denice at her house when DJ is at work. I miss going to events at Matthew's school. I miss hanging out with Sharon when Chris is at school and Blaine is at work. I miss riding my bike. I miss going to the park with Xeth...............I miss the old me but I'm glad that the new me will be stronger and better adapted.

Enough. I'm tired. I'm very happy that Shannon has put me in her diary entries. It shows that she cares and that's special to me because she doesn't even know me. What a wonderful world we live in.

Working on a new cross-stitch. All the ones in the past have been gifts for others. This one is for me to hang on my wall. Time to start decorating my bedroom with things that I love to have.

Things are moving along nicely with my online HTML course. I think that this is actually keeping my mind busy which is what I've needed. I've needed some sort of mental challenge. I abhor boredom and idleness.