I really hate these stupid panic attacks. I remember being able to get up at 5am, jump in the shower, get dressed and off to work. Those were the days. These days it's difficult to get up before 8am and not get the dizzies. I hate taking this medicine and I hate planning everything I do around whether or not the medicine helps me. Why couldn't it be that I only had panic attacks at night? I hate that they limit my mobility by occurring when I'm driving. I sure hope this new therapist is able to help me figure out why they started and finally get them to stop.
I long to have my old life back. I would go wherever I wanted whenever I wanted without any problems just like I used to. I can't stand being cooped up in this house all of the time. I'm not used to it and I don't like it. Sharon said I would get used to it an actually like being home all of the time. Well, it's been almost 6 months now and I'm still not used to it. Plus, I definitely don't like it. I want to be able to go to the store without worrying about having a panic attack at a red light. I want to pick my kid up from school. I want to get back to work. I'm tired of stressing about money since these stupid things happened. I want my normal life back.
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